has me locked away for days so that no one reaches me, repeatedly defeated me, energy depleted me, hurt and left in a lurch,
no time for others,
what’s this “for one another” selflessness, got me on some temporary selfishness, can’t assist others with their problems with these feelings of helplessness, I wish that I could embellish this, outpour of emotional rebelliousness…..
I’ve got to get back to being me, reapply my mask cause I run the risk of someone seeing me, that I’m capable of being vulnerable, but I’m so strong seemingly…..
Ironically, life is beating the life out of my body, I’ve become everyone’s punching bag, I’m wept with words like it’s a hobby, when I attempt to lobby, it falls on deaf ears, of my moments they rob me, as my emotions ooze, no one listens to my cries, or to my heart sobbing, like they’re in a trance, with no regrets or feeling sorry…..
I feel the need to tear up, cry, bawl, just all out release, but my tear ducts are dried, I’ve gone through rigamortis, although not yet deceased, if all stress could cease and I could find inner peace maybe I could identify a small piece of happiness at least…
I don’t want medications, I want prevalent revelations, I want people to understand without being taught, manifest education…….. dedication and consideration….. that’s what needed for elation……
resisting depression, my body’s self inflicted weapon….
I guess I must be patient or be patient….