I’m closed in, confined within my mind, simultaneously paraplegic, leg-locked, soothed by adult beverages, shifting my mood with melancholic shots, I savor the rancid flavor until my thoughts blocked,
but the edible relief doesn’t make me obnoxious, my toxic, boxed in environment got me boxed in , my depressions topical, it’s shifted my optical, perception of pain’s lessons, not enough time spent dwelling on gained blessings,
constantly tested, but I’ve never been average, with indolent mental muscles going numb now, popularity forces you to dumb down, there’s no where to run now, the world is becoming so savage, we’re hermit like inhabitants living indoors now, or CCW certified, sleeping with the pistol on the floor now, and our eyes remain open to the echo of war sounds,
from the inside looking out, the world looks crazy, it’s amazing, how four walls can give the false perception of safety, heart racing with each interaction, people are so unpredictable when in action, used to befriend anyone, now I’m more focused on subtraction, look at the opposite sex like what motivates your attraction,
observe the corners that people are backed in, folks are humility lacking, inabilities to empathize with the next man’s hardships compresses your soul, it’s like compaction of your compassion, relationships should be 50/50 so things remain whole when you’re reciprocating the fractions, differentiating the factors, do things just to do them, and not to elicit a reaction,
the world is filled with hidden agendas and false motives, in the search for genuine souls, nothing’s whole, it’s all broken, the realization is frightening, I mean, who do you hold when it’s thundering and lightning, on vacay when you’re sight seeing, and at night when intimacy becomes enticing,
who or what is your escape,
what do you want to occupy tonight’s dreams, bask in the current state of things, cause appearances are deceiving and all objects aren’t as close as they may seem.